And life goes on

Okay...so my yesterday was pretty bad. One where when you wake up you think...I should just stay in bed.....but no I get up, drag the kiddos out, off to work I go....only to find out that we are short staffed yet again. so as I run in every direction possible, and do this do that for the Dr's that I work for, I finally get to breathe.....as the day winds down, my last pt, I bring her back to the exam room, and I turn around to get the blood pressure cuff, go back to speak to her and she is slumped in the chair...I call her name no response.........I call her again, now I notice her gray color, no breath, I feel for a pulse......NOTHING. I call for the nurse on the floor, she comes in does the same thing that I just did, we call for the Dr...she yells at me. then comes into the room and tells us to take her to the ER(which is right across the street). The pt had died, just in about 5 min. of time...WOW. how presious life is, one minute here gone the next. Life goes on today, but I still see her, I still see the look on her daughter in laws face. I still hear that LAST breath. in then slowly out, then nothing. What can I say, I did pray for her and her family, I cried alittle for her, thought about loved ones that had passed. Yet life goes on....I really want this to change me, but I do not know how to go about it. I do not want to take one minute for granted. I want you to know that if you are reading this how much I love you., respect you, cherish you as a friend. I am blessed because of you. I do not tell you often enough, but I DO!